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Aaaarrrgghhh……

………….I wish I could scream. I am really really fed up with this computer and my internet connection!
This morning, it took over thirty minutes to get a stable connection – and it’s still been slow as hell since. Like wading through molasses. No exaggeration, but every page takes minutes to load. This isn’t the first time things have been this slow – it’s pretty much the norm nowadays. I am tempted to wonder if this is BT’s way of persuading us dial-up users to sign on for broadband when they enable our exchange later this month.
I may very well sign up for it anyway – I’ve been looking at the pricing, and monthly rental of their cheapest broadband package would cost no more than the extra line rental and AOL charge that we pay now. The times I’ve used broadband, on others’ computers, I’ve been hugely impressed with the speed of connection.

A new computer is also imperative – I’m still having to share a machine with B. Every month, when I think I’ve got enough spare cash to buy a basic MB and casing, a new bill arrives. It’s so damm frustrating altogether.

In other news, I’ve suddenly become the site-owner of the Oakleaf Campers Yahoo group. Fran, who started it, has decided to give it up – can’t blame her, she is already running four or five other Yahoo groups that I know of. So, what shall I do with my new toy?

About Yesterday….

Today, this was posted on an elist I belong to:

What is with all the drivel?
Most of us that are here in the UK take it in our stride and get on
with our lives.
We are fed up of the media stretching disasters into a week long
filling of a TV channel because they have nothing better to do!
๐Ÿ™‚

To which I have just replied:

As it happens, I’m London-born and raised. I was glad to escape it –
it’s a filfthy, overcrowded polluted, thoroughly over-hyped city.
However, I’m now seeing on the TV scenes of streets that I know very
well (I spent my teenage years living just 100 yards or so from Kings
Cross station). I’m seeing tube stations and bus routes that I used
to travel on every day. They’re saying on the news that rescuers are
having difficulty reaching the worst carnage in the tube tunnel close
to Kings Cross because it’s so deep. Well, I know just how deep that
particular tunnel is because I daily went up and down on the two
*very* long escalators that reach it.
Yesterday, I felt that my family, my tribe, my people had been
attacked; I felt that my city (yes, that filthy, crowded Big Smoke
that I hated) had been violated. I hope that the vile creatures who
committed this mass murder are watching the tv and seeing just what
grief and pain they have caused.
If you don’t want to watch it, you are free not to do so. Just don’t
try to speak for me.

And I really have to repeat Ken Livingstone’s words:

This was not a terrorist attack against the mighty and the powerful. It was not aimed at Presidents or Prime Ministers. It was aimed at ordinary, working-class Londoners, black and white, Muslim and Christian, Hindu and Jew, young and old. It was an indiscriminate attempt to slaughter, irrespective of any considerations for age, for class, for religion, or whatever.
That isn’t an ideology, it isn’t even a perverted faith รขโ‚ฌโ€œ it is just an indiscriminate attempt at mass murder and we know what the objective is. They seek to divide Londoners. They seek to turn Londoners against each other. I said yesterday to the International Olympic Committee, that the city of London is the greatest in the world, because everybody lives side by side in harmony. Londoners will not be divided by this cowardly attack. They will stand together in solidarity alongside those who have been injured and those who have been bereaved and that is why I’m proud to be the mayor of that city.

Granny Made Me An Anarchist

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Cover of Stuart Christie's bookGranny Made Me An Anarchist by Stuart Christie.
Stuart Christie is probably a completely unknown name for anyone under fifty (in fact, he’s probably equally unknown to most over-fifties too); he was deeply involved in anarchist politics and activism in Britain, Scotland and Europe in the 60s and 70s. His main claim to fame is being involved in a plot to assasinate General Franco, the despotic right-wing Spanish leader, then getting arrested a few years later in Britain for supposedly being part of the Angry Brigade bombing conspiracy (he wasn’t). This is his life story, and also a an anarchist polemic.
“If I get her the wool, will she make me one too?” was the line that rose unbidden to my lips when I first saw the title of this book. I hoped, before I started reading, that the double meaning was intentional; far too many politicos are so rigidly humourless as to be unable to see the funny side of anything. I wasn’t disappointed – Christie does actually have a sense of humour, albeit a somewhat lugubrious one; for instance, after spending a couple of paragraphs describing in rather too much detail just how prolonged and protracted General Franco’s death was, he concludes with “Jesus obviously didn’t want him for a sunbeam.” And he has some nicely tart things to say about people like Billy Connolly, who started out as Socialist firebrands and ended up as multi-millionaire members of the Establishment.
It’s sheer coincidence that I happen to be reading this right now, as self-styled anarchists are rioting over on the other side of Scotland – I ordered it from the library weeks ago. But if coincidence it was, then it was a good coincidence – I’ve learnt an awful lot about anarchism from reading it. Christie manages to do a good job of presenting his political philosophy, but it’s not going to tempt me into becoming an anarchist – alt least not the kind of anarchist that he is. Oh, you didn’t know there where different kinds of anarchists? Well, it seems there are at least as many sects of anarchism as there are of any religion – anarcho-syndicalists, Marxist anarchists, Catholic anarchists (?), pacifist anarchists and so on. “Anarchism” writes Christie, “encompasses such a broad view of the world that it cannot be distilled into a formal definition.” Nevertheless, he promptly does so, just a couple of sentences later: “Anarchism is a movement for human freedom…” Sounds OK to me. But then he goes on: “Its central tenet is that the fundamental problem of human society is power and the quest for power.”
Like Christians and their belief in salvation through Jesus, this last statement, for Christie, is clearly so self-evident that it is beyond debate or doubt; it is anarchism’s very own immutable Clause IV that every True Anarchist™ signs up to. So, I’m never going to be one.
Overall, it’s not a bad book – he’s a good writer and seems to have excellent recall of events of forty or more years ago. And it’s a good introduction to anarchism and anarchist thought. However, it left me unsatisfied on several levels. First, he is in dire need of an editor – his writing is occasionally clumsy and opaque, plus there are some typos and at least one misquotation. What is needed even more is an index, references and a glossary. He gives huge amounts of information about the 70s British political scene, much of which was hidden in official files at the time, but fails to give any sources at all. He quotes from numerous books, but doesn’t give a booklist. Without an index it’s almost impossible to go back and find anything. And without a glossary, it’s quite impossible to keep up with all the groups, people and organisations that he writes about.
Although this is also an autobiography, there is surprisingly little personal information. He writes several chapters on his childhood, but is reticent about anything personal in his grown-up life. For instance, there are several references in the later chapters to a “Brenda” who is evidently a partner. But (unless I missed something) he never tells us anything about her, or even how and when they met. This reticence may well be due to not wanting to reveal any more than strictly required about a loved one, but it has the unfortunate effect of painting her as some meek, silent “little wifey” who spends her time loyally visiting him in prison and keeping the home fires burning; we never find out what she does for a living, what thoughts she has, what she is like. Equally annoyingly, the book ends in 1975 – Christie’s life in the last thirty years surely can’t have been totally uninteresting?
Altogether, this could and should have been a better book. However, it’s a good book to be reading right now!

Finally…

….got Transit finished and the camera-ready copy emailed off to the printers. It was a bit of a mare all round – I had to hold the nearly-finished copy until the Council News came in on Friday night; when that happened, I found it was too long to fit in the space I reserved for it, so I had to do some editing, along with some shuffling around of other articles. In the middle of all that, I managed to lose most of an article and had to reset it. After days of searching, I couldn’t find a suitable image for the cover (well, not one that came free of copyright), so I decided to go with nout a cover illustration – that meant making up some typographicallly interesting headlines instead. Then I found myself with a page spare and had to find something to fill it with….
But it’s done now. I can’t completely relax – the web edition still has to be finished. But that can wait for a couple of days.

Not feeling too well today. I managed to do something to my knee last night – twist it or something – and it’s stiff and painful today. Both my knees are pretty b*ggered – arthritis, plus general crumminess and falling-apartness. So things go wrong with them very easily. I’ve taken some painkillers; they’re working, but as usual, they’ve turned my brain to mush so that it’s hard to concentrate. Which isn’t a great help when you’re trying to pull a magazine together and the deadline is tonight.

Somebody gave me a health book today – they’d promised it to me a couple of weeks ago, said it would help with my various ailments. I assumed, from the conversation, that it was some sort of diet or nutrition book. But it’s not. It’s written by some self-styled “metaphysical lecturer and teacher” (when I hear somebody glibly trot out that sort of phrase, I have to restrain myself from hitting the offender with a dictionary and telling them to look up “metaphysical”). And it’s all about how we create our own illnesses by negative thinking. Most of the book consists of a lengthy list of of illnesses and conditions, with the negative thoughts that cause them and suggested positive thoughts to cure them. Amongst the many conditions that negative thinking causes, and which positive thinking can cure you of, are ‘accidents’, ‘insanity’, ‘inflammation’ psoriasis, acne and AIDS (I am not making any of this up). Don’t bother with doctors, medical treatments, health regimes or anything else foolishly materialistic and allopathic – just recite these marvellous postive thoughts each day and you will be cured!
Looking up my eye conditions (longsightedness and astigmatism), I discover that I have a fear of ‘looking into the future’ and ‘looking at my family’ respectively; the book cannily doesn’t actually state that if I get over these two fears then I will develop perfect eyesight – but that is certainly implied. Since I was born with severe longsightedness, and my astigmatism came from having most of the optic nerve in one eye destroyed by measles at two months old, then I have clearly been suffering from these fears since before birth. I wonder why none of the many opticians and ophalmologists that I have seen never recommended that I throw away my glasses and treat my sight by tackling my innate fears and negative thinking?

However, the book doesn’t have a listing for “b*ggered-up knees”. So it would seem that they aren’t my fault. Well, that’s good to know.

Lunchtime…

…so I went downstairs to make myself a meal. Had thoughts about doing a nourishing, healthy rice/lentils/veggies stew. Inspection of the kitchen cupboards reveal pitiable lack of the first two ingredients. A veggie stew on its own holds no appeal (for this particular veggie anyway), so I look for other sustenance.
Hmm. 2 eggs – but I’m supposed to stay off eggs. No bread – so sandwich-making is out. Plenty of flour – but making a loaf will take all afternoon, and my stomach is growling. Tinned beans? A possibility. A tin of Smash – no way. Tinned beans with lightly boiled veggies? My stomach announces FEED ME – NOW! No time!
How about chapatties? Quick, easy and filling, and I have lots of flour. But how to make them? I dig back in my memories of well-spent squatting/starving hippy/broke single-mother days; I made plenty of chapatties then. But the precise recipe refuses to float to the surface – only a vague recollection of mixing water and flour. OK, so it’s water and flour and a bit of flavouring, cooked in a frying pan – how difficult is that to mess up?
Not all that difficult actually. Half a bag of flour and a very messed-up pan later, and I have a rather small part-burnt lump that is just edible. My stomach is still shouting, so I get out the beans and the Smash. Ten minutes later, my stomach is finally silenced. Leaving me in peace to write out a shopping list for tomorrow.

While I’m on the subject of minor domestic crises, I may very well write a haiku entitled “Upon Discovering That You Left a Wodge of Tissues in the Pocket of Your Best Jeans When You Put Them Into the Wash With a Dark-Blue Bath Towel, A Blue Shirt and Three Pairs of Navy-Blue Socks”. (Although I may have problems stretching “Oh bloody hell” into the required 17 syllables.)

Curious….

It’s always rather entertaining to look at the details of my site statistics and see what people are searching for.
Naturally, most of the most recent searches are about the Solstice, where and how and when; gratifying to see that I can provideso many people with some info on that. One search query had me bemused: “yorkshire naked solstice 2005”. Riiiiiiight, I think I know where you’re coming from….
Another one, not Solstice-related, has me rather baffled: “december 26th doomsday”. Why hasn’t anybody told me about that? I need to put it in the Events listing straight away!

ETA: Just Googled that last one, and found that it’s connected to an allegedly simple mathematical method for mentally calculating what weekday any date falls on. Doesn’t look that simple to me, but you can try it for yourself: The Doomsday Alogrithm.
And no, they don’t explain why it’s called that.

Work, Work, Work….

Time to get the next issue of Transit together. It’s quite a big job nowadays – the magazine has grown since I took it over in Spring of 2003. Then, it was purely web-based, with a downloadable PDF version. Laying out the web version took two or three days; the PDF consisted of the website material (minus most of the graphics) on one-sided A4 sheets so that they could be printed out on any printer. Laying it out took – ooh, at least half-an-hour.
Now the web version of Transit is still there, but the printed Transit is a proper A5-sized booklet-format magazine. It’s two completely different versions. For the web version I can use any amount of graphics, including colour photos, and the articles can be any length. The print version has to be squeezed into 24 (or less) A5 pages – that means a lot of careful pruning and editing; it’s all in b&w and additionally, it has to have a cover illustration.
Like the web version, the graphics and photos have to be optimised; I have to lay out the text in a visually pleasing manner; I have to lay out the contents in a logical front-to-back order (with a contents list). Having done that, I have to print it out and thoroughly proofread it. Once the copy is camera-ready, I then have to convert it to PDF so that it can be emailed to the printer. That has turned out to be an operation which is never as simple as it should be. For some reason, my PDF-making program cannot seem to embed certain fonts (which messed up my front cover last time), so I’ll have to check that all the fonts are indeed embedded.
[Later: Had a look on the web and discovered that some fonts can’t be embedded into PDF files; that includes my lovely Millenium font that I use for Transit. O bother!]

Then, I can zip it off to the printer. After which, I can check the web version and upload it all.
I’ve already spent most of two days on the job and it looks like it may well take me until Wednesday at least to finish. Oh well, it’s a paying job….

Accelerando!

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That’s the new SF book by Charlie Stross whom I just happen to know.
Well, OK, he’s not a close friend – well, maybe I shouldn’t really call him a friend.
OK, he’s more of an acquaintance.
OK, he’s hardly even an acquaintance. I used to know his partner Feorag; and I met him once and argued with him about liberterianism.
So actually, really, I hardly know him at all in fact. But just well enough to drop his name.
(Having some small experience of writing for the public, I regard all published writers with awe; Charlie has not only published eight or nine novels, but has also been nominated for awards. Respect!)

Anyway – his new novel Accelerando! is out. And he has made it available for free download, in a variety of formats. You can get it here.

And here endeth the plug.

Twilight…

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Last night, at about 11, B called me to the kitchen door.
“I think there’s a badger out there!”
I came to the doorstep and peered out. Sure enough, in the middle of the field outside, there was a dark animal shape moving about.
At this time of year, this far North, it never gets really dark at night. We just get a few hours of twilight, with the northern part of the sky brightly lit as if the Sun were about to rise there. Our first June here, that sight really unsettled me. All my life, it was the horizon to the East that had brightened before sunrise; looking North at 1am and seeing what appeared to be the first rays of sunlight there made me feel as if the Earth had slipped around on its axis and nobody but me had noticed it.
So, it was quite light enough to see the animal as it roamed and sniffed in the rough grass. It was around twenty yards away. It was hard to see what it was. I doubted that it was a badger; we have plenty of wildlife around here – deer, foxes, rabbits, squirrels, even otters. But I’d never heard of badgers in this part of Scotland.
“It’s probably a fox.”
“Too small. And it moves like a badger.”
“So where’s the white stripes? Should be able to see them in this light.”
“Could be a cat.”
“Too big.”
“Hard to tell – can’t see much of it through the grass.”
I stepped very slowly across the drive to the fence, careful not to make a sound. The light night-time breeze was in my direction, so I knew that the animal couldn’t pick up my scent. The creature, continued moving around randomly for a few minutes as we watched, then swung what was presumably its head in our direction and started towards us. I thought I caught the briefest reflective flash of green eyes.
“It’s a cat!”
“No it’s not…..”
I did a soft ‘hallo friend’ greeting in Cat, and got a ‘mew’ in return; in a matter of seconds, one of Carol’s cats – the old grey-coated, green-eyed matriarch – had climbed throught the fence and was undulating around my legs.
“OK, it’s a cat….”
From an open window somewhere, a telephone started chirruping, making me jump.
“It’s not for us. Come inside, it’s bedtime…”

This morning Carol came round and told us that Molly was dead. An old friend from our time in Lancashire, she was amongst the group that eventually coalesced into Oakleaf Circle; she threw the pot that we turned into the Oakleaf Luck.
A craftswoman, artist, fiery, impossible, spirited, brilliant. She passed peacefully, with her children and partner around her.
Shine on, Molly.