Well….

….had my eyes thoroughly checked today at the opticians. The bad news is that this dry eye condition isn’t going away, so I’ll be putting in eyedrops three times a day for the rest of my life; the good news is that there is no damage to my cornea,and no sign of glaucoma or cataracts.
The good/bad news is that I need a stronger lens for my left eye; and because my lenses are non-standard, my glasses have to be sent away elsewhere for fitting. I don’t have a spare pair of glasses and can’t do without them, so I’ll have to pay for a new pair.
Damm. My plans for buying a new hard drive for this PC are receding by the week. Every time I think I’m going to get enough cash together, something comes along to swallow it up.

And now that I’ve stopped doing the Elfin Diary, money will now be even harder to find. Oh well, I least the stress has lifted. I hated dumping it all on Sara this weekend, when she was visiting and just wanted some peace (and was dealing with migraines), but the years of stress and frustration I’d been getting from that job finally came to a head. I’m sure that the appearance of my dry eye condition, which made it impossible to use my computer for any length of time last week, was not unrelated to my desperate desire to find a way out of it.

But I’m now feeling more relaxed than I’ve felt in ages (even though I ate and drank very unwisely at the weekend, and woke up this morning rather the worse for it). The depression that kept threatening to paralyse me thoughout the early months of this years has gone.
And, somehow, I’m feeling hopeful for the future. Something good will come along, I feel. There’s a light at the end of the tunnelaaaAAARRRGGHHHHH…….