Grrrr…

Not feeling happy. Got the coal bill this morning. Ugh. And we have to get money together to go down to Preston at the weekend for D3’s wedding; we’ll be lucky if we have enough spare cash after filling the tank to buy a card.
And I’m feeling under the weather anyway. Saw the doc Friday – he said my heart, cholesterol level and blood pressure were all fine; but I was obviously not responding too well to the drugs. Too bloody right. I feel OK if everything is going well – but I cannot cope with stress or physical exertion at all. He’ll write to the hospital again to get me tested further. More bloody waiting. Why don’t I feel well any more???
But I’m looking forward to the trip, even though it’s costing us. Hey, I don’t have a daughter getting married every week, you know!

And C has rung, offering to pay me as soon as I produce the bare bones of the 2007 Elfin Diary this summer…. It’s a tempting offer. But I don’t know – I no longer like doing the Diary. It’s so frustrating not to be able to have an input. It could be improved in so many ways, but C just won’t listen to me. One of the things that could really do with improving is the daily celebrity birthdates listing – so many of them are old. For instance, who these days has heard of Nelly Melba? or David Kossof? Or Daphne du Maurier? The youngest person currently listed is Damien Hurst, born in 1965; he’s one of only three people listed who were born after 1950. I’ve told C that too many of the ‘names’ are throughly obscure for today’s readers (one or two are even obscure to me – I had to look up Arthur Whitten Brown, for instance) .There are loads of famous names born within the last forty years, but C doesn’t want to change any of it – she keeps saying “But that’s what they like! They don’t want any changes!”
Sigh 🙁
I wish I could change a few things…. And I’m not just talking about the Diary….